Sunday, December 9, 2007
A Secret Me
Sometimes it feels good to disappear. Ya know? Sometimes, I don't want people to know where I am or what I'm doing - I just want to be or do, without others knowing. It's a part of "just living" for me - without updating everyone else. Then, I found I love writing more than disappearing, even if disappearing is necessary for awhile. Thus I've found a compromise. I like the idea of "pen names" or having an "alias" or "alternative identity." Other than the "top secret" mysteriousness (and perhaps slightly psychologically perplexingness) of it, it allows me to keep some secrets to myself, while still being able to write about the things I know, some things I don't, experiences I have or experiences I want to have, without worrying about it becoming less than enjoyable, bothersome, painstaking, or hurtful to myself or others. Sounds rather serious doesn't it? Well it isn't!! It's just how it is. Henceforth there won't be anymore silly seriousness (I'm rather against taking things too seriously anyway - I think it makes people dull, and if there's one thing I'm really against, it's making things dull) - unless I've given you timely warning. A certain amount of anonymity is preferable, and I think I can achieve both a little "mystery" as well as satisfying my urge to write. It really was all about the writing in the first place you know. But then, we never know how things are going to pan out.