Monday, April 14, 2008

That's just great Barack - now who am I going to vote for? God?

Sigh. I'm sure everyone has heard about Barack Obama's stinging comment about small town Americans and small American towns. Of course, when I first heard about it - I had to look it up and see the exact wording of his "comment" myself. The media has been accused of "going easy" on Barack - that he is the Media's poster boy - and quite honestly that seemed to be true. Now, however, the media seems to be trying to make up for their "political bias" by portraying Obama's comment about small towns becoming "bitter and clinging to guns and religion" as something more demeaning than it really was - or was it? When I read the comment - and being from a very very very ridiculously small town in rural Utah, I have to agree with him that these small communities are dwindling and disappearing. Especially in a mining community like mine - you can only mine for so long and push the earth so far before it stagnates, and eventually, starts to downward spiral. People move on to more economically promising areas - and the small towns eventually die out. HOWEVER, Barack's explanation as to HOW these small towns COPE with such an economic downfall came off, to me, as condescending and elitist. It was a lame comment, and frankly it has effected how I think about Barack. Almost to the point of "Oh great. There seriously isn't anyone to vote for - either a Crazy POW who's already having to combat rumors of infidelity, a cold hearted, calculating politique who sold her soul to the Devil years ago, or an elitist jackass." Is there really a lesser of 3 evils to choose from? I bought a Hillary Clinton biography this weekend. I bought it because I do find her a very intriguing woman and I'm interested in getting to know the "woman behind the politician"...and honestly, after hearing such negative comments about small town Americans and their "clinging to religion out of bitterness and frustration" (as if religion is only acknowledged by poor ignorant folk out of desperation - it's like he's shocked that any sensible successful American would ever really consider religion worth clinging to) that Barack stupidly let slip - (and I'd never thought I'd say THIS) but Clinton is looking better and better...at least comparatively.

Here's the comment. What say YOU?

"You go into some of these small towns in Pennsylvania, and like a lot of small towns in the Midwest, the jobs have been gone now for 25 years and nothing's replaced them," Obama said. "And they fell through the Clinton Administration, and the Bush Administration, and each successive administration has said that somehow these communities are gonna regenerate and they have not. And it's not surprising then they get bitter, they cling to guns or religion or antipathy to people who aren't like them or anti-immigrant sentiment or anti-trade sentiment as a way to explain their frustrations." CNN Article

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Why is she still on this show?

No really. Really. I've already posted today - but I just watched the tail end of American Idol (the only part worth watching on the elimination show really- they milk that thing for an entire HOUR! Geez! At least cut it down to a 30 minute segment!), as I was waiting for a NEW EPISODE OF THE OFFICE! YES! There are a handful of shows I enjoy watching. The Office being one (so happy it's back!) LOST, and yes, American Idol. I enjoy the performances and it's far far far less drama than most (read ALL other) reality shows. Of course I have my preferences...I like my Utah Boy (rep-re-sent!) David Archuleta, cute doll face Brooke White, and Irish sista Carly Smithson. As far as the others go, I'm mostly indifferent. BUT there is one particular contestant I can not SERIOUSLY understand WHY she is STILL on this show. I can not believe that Kristy Lee Cook has made it this far. I really can't. I mean she's a cute girl, but nothing particularly amazing. Which is fine IF she had some amazing memorable voice. Buuuuuut - she doesn't. No really. She reminds me of the beauty pageants I used attend with my mom in Emery County; somewhat entertaining, a lot of big country hair, big country teeth, tight wrangling jeans, and mediocre talent. Yes. I really feel like Kristy Lee Cook is forgettable. I know that sounds very "Simon-esque." I'm also aware that some of you may be thinking "oh really..well why don't YOU sing something." But I didn't try out for a reality show based on my singing talent for the world to critique. And yes - she sounds nice - buuuuut not making it this far into American Idol nice. No no. She should've been gone WELL before cute rocker Michael Johns. That's for SURE! I feel she cheated when she sang "I'm Proud to be an American." How is anyone going to vote her off after sing a song like THAT at a time like THIS! A liiiiittle sketchy I'd say. She just keeps slipping through! So come ON America - really, we gotta get serious here. Because this is very serious. It's the next AMERICAN IDOL we're talking about! Do we want another Taylor Hicks or Ruben Studdard? No we don't! She's been in the bottom 3 more than any of the other contestants - lets break that pattern and come through on our WORD! Time's up!

All I want to be is British - is that so much to ask?


Anyone who knows me, and some people do know me, knows I really want to be British. Nay, that I, in fact, SHOULD'VE been British but by some fluke or accidental "heaven to earth" tube slide mix up - I ended up in the sticks of Utah (I've always had the image in my head of little babies sliding down "heavenly" tubes to earth - I don't know why). Sigh. It's okay - there are probably a lot of ethereal tubes leading from heaven to every imaginable place in the world, and I'm sure a little mix up happens once in awhile. My mom used to tell my Aunt Chris (her younger sister) she was adopted from an Indian Tribe - and rightly so because she is pretty dark complected, with high cheek bones, likes beer (oh I'm kidding! Stop!), and is a tom-boy (tom woman?) through and through. So maybe they stuck her in the wrong heaven tube as well. Whatever happened, somewhere deep in my heart, I feel that Britishness would suit me just fine!

Why British? You might ask...

  • The British are dryly hilarious. I love British humor and ever since I can recall, my particular form of humor (although dashed with some American sarcasm and slap-stick guffaws) is really very British. Witty, but not obtrusively so. Clever most certainly! It's a smart humor that most Americans can't fully appreciate. And of course - we must make our humor "bigger and better" which is what we do with everything - but really - is bigger (louder, annoying, pushy) better? No Texas. It isn't!
  • The British Don't Touch Each Other. I've never been a touchy or particularly affectionate individual. In High School - when girls all hugged each other and held hands (was that just my High School? Hmmm), I wanted nothing to do with it. I didn't really want anything to do with hugging all over the boys either. As far as true affections go - I'm quite reserved and distant. It's not a "defensive mechanism" or anything of the sort - it's just how I am. And it's just how the British are too. They only show affection dogs and horses. I will add spouses and children in there for my personal preferences - but really, the bubble is Britishly fortified.
  • The British are Proper and Polite. I also feel I'm quite proper when the situation calls for such propriety, as well as rather polite. Sure sure I have my little vices here and there - I think poop is funny - but all in all, I like the proper way of things such as "loading the dishwasher properly" or "politely clapping after a horribly ridiculously performance or play."
What I like About Britishness
  • Spelling. Favourites. Shoppe. Colours. Yes yes. I think it adds a little something - er - other than the obvious
  • Street Names. None of this Jefferson Avenue or Bart Blvd nonsense. Or even worse, 13th East and 4th South. No no. The have names like "Little Winging" or "NewCastle Up-On-Tyne" or Kensington and High Street or Notting Hill. I also enjoy the "Shires" (said shers...no long I people. It's not Lord of the Rings) - Lancashire, Devonshire...things of this nature.
  • They Name Their Houses. It's part of the address! This is perhaps the most enjoyable aspect of Britishness; their sweet little modest homes with over growing gardens and fences to keep out the rabbits. I could live in "Rose Cottage" or "Meadow Glen" or "Hamstead Heath." How is this not completely perfect?
  • Sweet Shoppes. I think that's enough said.
  • Overall Lexicon: Barbel and Squeak, Sausage and Mash, they just have these labels and names for everything. They abbreviate things like "demi-capu" (half cappacino) and have words like knickers and trousers. I also like saying Vitamins and Aluminium with a British accent...which brings me too
  • The British Accent. Honestly, they could say "there's a hole in my sock" and it would sound smart. It's an entirely amiable way of speaking - easy on the ears, very proper, and only adds to the overall pleasing being of the British. Who doesn't love a British accent? Really. WHO!
  • The History. Honestly, American History is okay - but there's only so much of it. Now, British History - that's something! They've got Roman Baths, they've got Royal Heritage (God Save the Queen), they've been around the political block a number of times. I mean, the House of Lords and the House of Commons sounds much better than "The House of Representatives" and "Congress." It's more...picturesque. They've got cemeteries with gravestones dating back CENTURIES! And I'm not talking 300 years - I'm talking 15th Century England! They've got Westminster and the Tower of London! They've got London Bridge AND the Globe Theater! They've got Big Ben and Parliament! What haven't they got??? I wish I could say McDonalds and Starbucks but dammit - they DO have those. Sigh. That's a post for another rant...er time. Stupid American Big Business.
  • The Country. Oh yes. The rolling green hills and luscious woods of the English Countryside. Absolutely ideal
  • Oxford, Cambridge, Stratford-Upon-Avon, Bath, the Cliff's of Dover, Brighton, LONDON, Canterbury, Manchester, Wales!
  • Pasties! Mmmm, pasties. No you sicky's - not in the "barely covering nipple" kind either. Psh. Pull youselves together.
  • Winston Churchill, Margaret Thatcher, Jane Austin, CS Lewis, JRR Tolkein, Charles Dickens, Virginia Wolff, Sylvia Plath, Bronte's, William Shakespeare, Milton, JK Rowling...I better just stop that list. BUt you get the idea.
  • Tea and Crumpets - not that I drink much tea - but I'd like to have the option of "tea breaks."
  • Simon Cowell
  • Coat's of Arms
  • 2 Hour Chunnel Ride to France
  • REAL Chocolate - none of this Hershey's nonsense
  • Nannys - Helloooo Mary Poppins
  • Boarding Schools - and an overall better educational track for their youth in my opinion.
Sigh...really. You can see what I mean don't you? There are so many reason why 1 - I should rightly be British and 2. Why anyone in their right mind can see WHY I have this desire. I went to London for 6 weeks on a Study Abroad through the University of Utah. 6 weeks was not enough - it was a mockery - but I did solidify my desire to join the ranks of Britishdom for a season, or two. When I go back, I'm going back to stay. It's my long term goal to get my PH.d in Britain (considering my desire to study the rise of feminist Literature in 17th-20th Century Britain), and so help me I will do it! God Save the Queen!

Monday, April 7, 2008

It's APRIL for heavens sake!!! Why? WHY!?!?


I took these videos/pics from my office window at BYU this morning. I used the office camera (thus the weak pixel quality) for I did not have mine with me. I mean, how did I know I was going to have an opportunity to take a picture of a bloody blizzard in bloody April with bloody gragantu-flakes coming down en masse, destroying my dreams of spring flowers, flip flops, breezy summer nights, and Popsicles? EH????!?!??! Grrrrrr...


Pay no attention to the springly dressed girl in the window reflection, rather look at the poor sucker walking outside in the blizzard.


Saturday, April 5, 2008

Bronx Students Discuss Obama, Race, Their Renewed Political Interests and America's Hope



Obama has been called the "students" President - the President for the rising generation. Most of this geneartion can't yet vote - but they have a voice, and they have found a candidate in Barack Obama. I think this says something about him. The youth have been called politically apathetic - with the lowest voting ratio falling between the ages of 18-30. We need to exercise our right to Vote - to speak out for those who can't yet, but who have been made to care about their America. Their future America is in our hands. Yes we can.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Waiting for something Whimsical ; and Why Not?

I just watched Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium. I really liked it. I WOULD like it. I am one of those "whimsical, believe in magic and wonder" kind of people. Sets me apart from normal and clearly in the midst of fantastical...er...maybe by fantastical I mean geekdom. ;) As far as a movie recommendation goes, this one has its cheesy child-like themes we've heard over and over "believe in yourself" "believe things are more than they appear" "give into the fantastical sometimes" "live your life to the fullest" but really, how many times do we hear these timeless lessons and actually apply them in our lives? Are they cheesy because they've become so cliche? Or are they cheesy because we live in a world of pessimism, a world where people don't actually have tea parties on the ceiling, or bouncy balls have minds of their own - a world firmly concreted in the reality of life's hardships, Wars, trauma's, depression, stress, worries, loss, disease, political unrest, and social disparity. It's not news that the world is harsh, unforgiving, and is the blaring anti-thesis of a Fairy Tale.

I love stories. Ever since I can remember I've LOVED stories. Stories about anything,but mostly stories about magic. My parents would read to me as a child and I even remember when I couldn't quite read yet - I'd take a large stack of Bernstein Bears books, or beautiful hard bound child's fairy tales like Beauty and the Beast, or elegantly illustrated stories like Heckity Peg, and sit and look over the pictures and the words for hours. I had a bedside lamp before I had Barbie Dolls. I had a mini-chalk board to scribble the words I saw in books before I could actually read them. I remember what joy I felt when I learned to write my name; and would stand in front of my chalk board for hours writing it over and over - waiting for the day when I'd write my own story, or better yet, be part of the stories I loved to listen to, and craved to read on my own. As I grew up I never tired of reading. I read before I went to bed every night, and recall many a late night absolutely having to stay up and finish the stories I had begun. My parents would come down in the morning and find my reading lamp still on, and books tangled up in my bed sheets. Incidentally, I was a terror to try and get up in the morning for school. But those late nights of Boxcar Children, Babysitters Club, Sweet Valley High, Nancy Drew, Mary Higgins Clark ( I thought I was finally entering the world of "adult literature" with that particular phase) To Kill a Mockingbird, The Outsiders, The Scarlet Letter...are something I treasure During elementary school I remember reading time was my favorite time. I would get so wrapped up in my story, I'd look up from my book some astronomical amount of time later and find that we were half-way through our Math lesson and I hadn't even noticed. Needless to say, I'm very bad at Math. Sadly, as we grow we forget these small joys for a little while. I did. Although I was sure I'd be an English Major since I learned what a "major" was - with college comes much less time for leisure reading, not to mention the reality of making it along in this world: bills, studying, school, plans for the future, goals, trying to make a difference in a world where it seems like nothing really ever DOES make a difference, reaching to find the Fairy Tale "right after I graduate", "when I get married", "when I have the money..." I became one of those "realists" - and put away my Fairy Tale dreams. It wasn't in an instant - but rather a slow ebbing away of whimsical dreams, and replacing it with stark realities. Necessary sorrows.

Sometimes I dread bringing children into this world. I know I will get to someday, and I don't know how I can protect them from all the sadness, "stark realities", that shadow our everyday. It's nice to be reminded that there is some good, some charity, something a little more magical than just "what is" out there. I believe stories - stories like Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, Peter Pan, The Hobbit, the Goose Girl, Treasure Island, Mary Poppins, Harry Potter - stories that take us out of "our world" and create one where anything is possible, where there is good being done without an agenda, where we can feel safe and hopeful without doubt or pessimism, where we can journey with others for awhile through their dark and weary trials, but know they will always come out on the other side, that are part of the answer to keeping our children from becoming gloomy, melancholy, "realists" - at least becoming those things all the time. Good triumphs over evil. What about a place where there's modern day Repunzzal's, Prince Charming's (sigh - yes I HAVE to believe that), Gandalf's, Tin Man's, Gingerbread Men, Mother Goose's, good Kings and wise Queens? Why shouldn't there be these things? Why - before we "have" to give up our stories - can't we believe that Neverland exists? Or there are dragons in caves and trolls under bridges? Where everyone has a Fairy Godmother or owns a magical Toy Shop? Why not take break from reality and live in these fantastical moments for a little while? Maybe just believe in the Happy Endings?

It's not unrealistic - it's hope. In all these stories it's always darkest before the dawn, there's always something the characters have to overcome - whether it be a raging Dragon, a Wicked Witch, a corrupt Ruler, self-doubt, or even death - but the point is they overcome. Not to mention having a few magical side adventures with Cheshire Cats or woodland nymphs along the way. CS Lewis, in his book"The Magicians Nephew " from the Narnia series, puts it this way "When things go wrong; you'll find they usually go on getting worse for some time; but when things once start going right they often go on getting better and better." They will get better - and why not try and help the "better" by not being so wrapped up in the gloom, and try to not only create "a land far far away" but live in it once in awhile. I see nothing wrong with a little make-believe; "When each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives everyday that the sun rises" (Paulo Coelho "The Alchemist).

So this is what happens when I watch Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, alone, on a Friday night. :) I decide that the world is too much gloom and doom and a pirate ship or pixie dust might do it some good. But I've always thought that - I just have to be reminded of it now again with a good story.

"Life is an occasion; rise to it," Mr. Magorium

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Why I'm a sucker

I believe everything people say. No, I'm not naive (well...) - but I've noticed that I take people's word at face value.

I'm gullible. And I don't mean that as in I think television is God's word or that I can be swayed by any politician. That I question. Even some opinions on certain matters of religion I question and thus, explore and find answers for myself. I'm definitely one to question the consensus, to not conform for conformity's sake, or believe something JUST because an authority figure or "position" said it was so. No no, I mean if someone should, oh I don't know, claim that my roomie and her fiance broke up because he'd been secretly seeing another girl - I'd believe that 100%. I might not even question the validity. Mostly because I think "Why would someone lie about that?" Yes, this happened to me yesterday - good old April Fool's Day. That exact "roomie break up" scenario. I came home and my other roomie mentioned that our room mate and her fiance had called it quits. I gasped and said "No way!! Really?!?!" And she suckered me in for about another 5 minutes, with me gasping and shaking my head the whole time, before she started laughing, "April Fools!" Dammit!Suckered! Again! I dread April Fool's day because I am SUCH a sucker. It's really those things one tries to trick naive little blond girls into believing that I fall for. Every. Single. Time. Usually these things are completely illogical, and irrational...even somewhat sensational. Things that have some basis in common sense - but when you think about it - really make no sense at all. Much like that sentence...ahem.


The REALLY good thing is - I don't over-analyze, exaggerate, or "read into things." Phew!! Right? I mean - if someone says "Hey, you're cool, I like you." I don't think "OH he must want to get married and have babies." OH heeeeeeellllllll nooooooooo! I just tend to think "Oh he thinks I'm cool and likes me. Sweet" (even then I'm like "really? are you suuuuure? Don't say so if you don't mean it cause I will believe you"....like a what? SUCKER!) So - lets make THAT PERFECTLY clear. There is a very large difference between my just believing in the face value of words, and thinking that one small gesture means something ridiculously out of proportion. No no my friends - I HAVE prospective, I'm just a sucker is all. A big old sucker. Just need to calm the hell down ;) on being a "pleaser, helper, aider, supporter." I realized that I'm such a people-pleaser that I try way too hard to try and help, aide, support, those I care about. It spells backfire. Big backfire. But very good lessons learned. So there's a win? Ish? :(

Perhaps combining a little more "weariness" believing what folks say, and trying not to smother folks with my "willingness to please and show you how much I really care so you will stick around" I can find a (more) perfect balance and maybe not be so scared of relationships, or more importantly not be so stressed on April Fool's Day! Sigh. Lets not even talk about my fear of marriage...or rather marriage to the wrong person, I'd just like to date for awhile - make CERTAIN we both mean what we say and say what we mean...IN DUE TIME. I need time. Timing is so important. Right person, right place, right TIME. Provo seems to be against "time." ;) Someone will have to be patient with me for sure. Poor sucker. At least we'll have something in common.