Saturday, December 13, 2008

Deja Vu over and over...and over

I feel like I've done this all before. My life is on repeat. It really is. The lost job and then getting another one in a completely unexpected place (BYU last year and USHE in SLC this year). Having to financially claw my way through the first few months of "getting back on your feet", as well as a dash of personal heart explosion and general "no really, does it get worse?" Mmm hmm. I think I've done all that before - and now I'm doing it again. Though - like last time - once it started to improve - it kept on getting better and better. CS Lewis said something like that once, "When things go bad, they tend on getting worse for sometime. But once things start going right, they get keep on getting better and better." Not a direct quote - but DARN CLOSE! I guess it falls into that whole "darkest before the dawn" idea I suppose. Though the apex of my dawn last time turned out to be another driving force down into DOOM! DOOM! DOOOOOOO...cough! Hack! Ahem...sorry, got a little carried away.

At any rate - the De Ja Vu continues. Besides having "situational repeats" - it's incredibly strange to be back in SLC again. I love SLC - I just didn't think I'd be back so soon. Provo seemed like an enjoyable "new" place for me for awhile. But I guess that isn't the plan, ya know? I'm also going back to the UofU to get my MPA in the Fall (God willing...I hope I hope) which I also never thought I'd do. I didn't want to go back to the U - but back to the U I shall go. Not to mention I'm apt searching (though honestly I think I found the most amazing place - I'm waiting to hear back from "the girl" today) downtown as well. And what "SLC Revisited" moment would be complete without the latest addition to my life......a second job. (Sorry mom - I know you keep hoping for a "man announcement" but lets be honest). I am once again a proud employee of Barnes and Noble! Yes! I love this job. I really do. I worked at the B&N last summer (that's Summer 07) until I moved to Provo for a "teaching job." Being an English major working at B&N is both heavenly and expensive. In the 4 hours I was there today - I already started making a mental list of all the great books and music I would purchase with my employee discount. Oh wait - except even with a discount 0 money doesn't make it too far. Crap. I'm also just a "seasonal" worker - but I hope to schmooz enough to stay on longer. I'd love to have this job until August when I start my MPA program. I desperately need the extra cash (who doesn't right?) and I like staying nice and busy. This job and my "real" job DEFINITELY do that.

Oh didn't I tell you? I'm going to St. George again this week :) Yup! Mini-vacation #2. At least I don't have to drive to Hurricane. This time I'm doing presentations at Desert Hills Middle School. I don't mind going - but to be frank - it would be nice to have some volunteers pick up some of those presentations. I will be going down to St. George 4 more times in January. Phew. Sure wish it were June when these presentations were going on. Sheesh! Just my luck it's the middle of winter and my Marriott Town Suites only has an outdoor pool....aaaaaaand hot tub. Mmm. Hot tub.

At any rate - it seems like life is on repeat - and I'm not sure why that is - but hopefully history will NOT repeat itself again. I'm pretty sure I won't be able to take it. Once the dawn breaks and things continue to improve - they had really better just keep on keepin on. Ya know what I mean? No more Doom. No more dashed expectations. Just a few "happily ever afters." Wouldn't mind putting those on repeat.

1 comment:

Crazy Walker said...

Ain't that how it always goes? That CS Lewis guy was a smarty, and I believe anything he says. Isn't it so great how things keep chugging along though? And things DO get better. At least I'm hoping so too. ;)

I love reading about your adventures. I love seeing all these awesome traits & things you're learning & building on. You are such an awesome woman!